My Small Problem

My Small Problem

Okay so, for as long as I can remember, I have had a really uhh hard time expressing my feelings. Any deep desires or ideas or problems I have tend to stay up there in my mind. This issue is not limited to telling other people because honestly I don't feel the need to share with others. On a public level, I want to be seen as how I like to see myself. If that makes sense. What really gets me is revealing these things to myself and channeling them into something. I think that I'm a creative-type person. My mind is non-stop full of ideas that for some stupid reason I can't bear to put into reality. I have grown to learn to accept my troubles and insecurities which was a huge step. Now that I have accepted what I feel, I want to channel it. I really really do. This may make no sense, but I have all these things in my head and the time comes to put ideas to paper I can't do it. It's all there, beautifully laid out and in color up in my head. But I can't manage to bring it down.

You know how you may not say exactly what you think with friends or family because you feel they won't get it or make fun of you? I do that, but with myself?? I know I have potential. I know I could be great and do great, but for some chemical imbalance (?) in my head, I am holding myself back.

Which really fucking sucks because I have been so inspired lately!! RIP!! Also, no I can't draw. That would probably be easier.

This may be too personal

I'm scared, but here it is.